Please fasten your seatbelts, the flight is about to take off.
Fine, but as soon as that light goes off I'm getting up to pee. Why did I take the window seat? I have longer legs, I should have taken the aisle so I could stretch out. It's not his fault though, I demanded it, I had to see the sun to make sure we didn't leave the planet.
I guess other planets can still see the sun, but I'm sure it would look different enough that I would notice.
He's been so sad lately, I thought I would surprise him with a quick hop skip and jump to the Caymans, but then of course his father died. Kidneys stuff. I'm not complaining about his father dying, though I guess I do wish it didn't happen, but not because of the Caymans. Because I love him.
I love him so much. I know it doesn't sound like it but I am a very supportive partner. I can read him, and I know how to adjust like a thermostat.
Thank you, we are now at our cruising altitude and you are free to move about the cabin.
"Cruising altitude, haha, right? Right. Jordan wake up, I have to go to the bathroom. And the lady's coming with our champagne can you get that?"
How did he fall asleep so quickly we've been in the air for one second. How is there a line for the bathroom? They just let us get up, this is unacceptable.
Sometimes Jordan gets really sad, like so sad. And I can feel him breaking, and I want to help put the pieces back together, but sometimes they're sharp, and if I bleed on this new shirt I swear to god I'll kill myself.
"Excuse me, can you please hurry up in there!" *Bang* *Bang* *Bang*
I'm surrounded by fucking children. Why do I have to do all this work? His mom has been no help planning the funeral, and I'm not letting him do that. Nobody should have to plan their parent's funeral. They should be able to go and it's perfect and they grieve and we grieve and I'm there and he doesn't need anything he just needs me if he needs me and I'm there because I'm there. So I'm making his sisters do it.
I should have told him to take the window seat when I got up if he's just going to sleep the whole time.
Turbulence.
Great, I fucking pissed myself.
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